January 09, 2014

Pizza Dream.


It happened again, I dreamt of something that I consciously decided to give up.  First it was the cake dream, then I had the brownie bites dream and last night, a pizza dream.  Again I woke up feeling sickish, with a headache and swearing I must have eaten the greasy cheesy saucey pizza sometime in the night.

Giving up dairy, wheat, coffee and sugar seems a lot easier in REAL LIFE than in my dreams.  Huh, who'd a thunk. 

David, my real sugar, is going through this food, yoga journey with me (thank goodness!) so I asked if he had weird food dreams. 

"No, but I did get an erection in the coffee aisle at Whole Foods today." 


Well there ya go.  Love him. 

I told one of my good friends who is in years into recovery about my dream and he said that was common for him to have dreams that he drank something or was drunk but then woke up without a hangover.  Apparently it is pretty common.

As we talked more, we decided it would behoove us to move away from the past and think about the future.  To Visualize where we will be in a year, 5 years.  It is hard to change, it takes a lot of momentum.  Visualizing helps so much because we don't always have the energy to PUSH ourselves there,but that future self....That self DOES have energy.  She is Wonder Woman or Superman and can pull, pull, pull hard to get the momentum to move the tired present self out of the rut, the sinking hole, the anxious dreams.

As much as I don't like the anxiety of feeling like I did the thing that I didn't, I will take anxiety over actually doing the thing.   

Try something with me. Let's write down where we want to see ourselves in 1 year; write10 things as if we have already accomplished them. For example, if you want to run a 5k, have an emergency fund, read 20 books, etc. write:

1. I ran my first 5k.
2. I saved enough money to cover 6 months of expenses.
3. I read 20 books, 15 fiction, 5 non-fiction. 
4. I binged watched Orange is the New Black in one weekend.

You get the idea.  Maybe this will change our dreams from what we thought we did, to what we will do. 

The end. 


1 comment:

susan#'s said...

I am sleeping so hard these days, I don't even remember dreaming!:) I think I need to get to bed earlier.

Love the idea of visualizing where you want to be instead of where you don't want to be.